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Gabriel Fletcher ([personal profile] overdrawing) wrote2015-08-21 10:03 pm

There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin [Closed to Caleb, Pre-Dated 8/23/15]

When there is nothing else, there is work. After falling into the ocean, Gabe has stopped sleepwalking but that's the least of his problems now. Everything feels like a punishment, even when he wishes he could feel safe. The ocean is half a place of comfort and also a void of mystery. He doesn't know if accepting that he is a siren means he'll have mastered his nature or succumbed to it.

But at least there's work. There are still plates and glasses to wash, counters to wipe down, his hands blistered ad aching. He knows split knuckles and dishpan hands, the endless reel of work that propels him on beyond his own confused thoughts.

It's where Sunday finds him. Not at church or taking a day of rest. At work, at the bar. Sometimes he thinks the bartenders hear more confessions than any priests in town.
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-23 07:48 am (UTC)(link)
Caleb glances up, a look of derision lining his face, accompanied by a soft snort of disgust.

"Fuck God, Gabe. Don't you get it? They were brainwashing us," he says, pushing off the wall with his foot, bitterness lacing every syllable.
Edited 2015-08-23 07:48 (UTC)
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-23 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
"Our parents. The church. Society," Caleb says, throwing his hands up in frustration. "Read a book, Gabe, seriously." He moves away from the side of the building entirely, coming to stand in front of Gabe to make sure he's listening. "There's a reason why our parents kept us at home like that, cut off from the world-- and it wasn't for our benefit. Now that you're out here, can't you see it?"
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-23 07:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"But it didn't protect us, it just made us hate ourselves. That's not right," Caleb says, his voice verging on pleading. He needs Gabe to understand. He wants to tear Gabe's hands away, tear his chest away and expose his heart to the truth. "Whoever you are, Gabe, whatever you are? Is perfect. Fuck them for thinking otherwise."
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-23 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Caleb looks skyward and lets out a sigh of frustration. "They're just words," he mumbles, returning his gaze to the ground. He begins to pace, like he has all this bottled up energy he doesn't know what to do with.

"Just forget it, believe what you want. I'm supposed to go to Portland. I just wanted to see that you were okay."
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-24 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
"This guy I know has an older brother who owns a construction company in Portland. I'm broke, and I've basically exhausted all my...uh, housing options back home. So. I'm going to get a job doing whatever guys do at a construction company."

Benny had promised him it was stuff that he'd be able to learn, no problem. Truthfully, Caleb had mostly just wanted to get out of Pennsylvania. It's not like he can see his brothers and sisters anymore, so what else is there? Just a longing for a family he couldn't have, and bad memories.
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-24 06:06 am (UTC)(link)
"I don't know, honestly," Caleb quietly admits. "Maybe just doing demo or putting floors in or something." It's not something he's super eager to do, but he doesn't have a ton of options.

"I...hadn't planned on it. I think he's expecting me soon," he doesn't look at Gabe when he says it, absently rubbing the knuckles of his left hand with his thumb.
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-24 06:26 am (UTC)(link)
"Do you want your parents to come looking for you?" Caleb asks, glancing over at him. It's not like he knows Gabe's parents beyond his father's furious yelling, and his mother's scared expression. "They were worried about you, for what it's worth. When I saw them."
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-25 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm sorry," Caleb says quietly. He feels responsible. It feels like this is his fault. He kissed Gabe first, at the time he hadn't known it would go as far as it did, but he still had wanted something to happen. And anyway, in their world, a kiss was bad enough.

"You probably have to get back to work," he finally says, shoving his hands in his pockets. "I'll let you get back to it."
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-25 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
Caleb looks over at Gabe, not even bothering to hide his surprise. "You want to see me again?" he blurts out, quiet, but a little disbelieving. He was pretty sure Gabe would be glad to be rid of him.
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[personal profile] freefromsin 2015-08-25 02:36 am (UTC)(link)
"You're my friend," Caleb echoes. "I didn't know what had happened to you..."

Also, there's the matter of what he won't say: that that night at the hotel meant a lot to him. He can guess from Gabe's reaction that it probably falls under the Regret category, that thing that was nice at the time but overall probably should have never happened. But for Caleb, despite how tangled everything had gotten, it was a different story.

"Okay. I'll see you at ten."